Up

Ok i never knew ppl actually read this lol, [maybe i'll become famous! haha] ok well it's nearly 11pm and I just finished watching Up. IT WAS SO CUTE/SAD/AWESOME/... LOVING! Ok i am not over exaggerating :) I feel like tht it's a very beautiful movie... [even tho the quality is bad] and I love how the dog speaks xD ok enough said.
Victor - techniquelly no mysetry man :D
Theo - thanks for the advice :D I have taken your wise words into consideration.
I wonder who is gonna comment next? xD
Ok so tomorrow is the last day of school.. and I'm hoping my bludge day [including a study period, movie, tech lesson and receiving my badge :D] will be very very relaxing for me :) I dno bout you lot, but I think I'll have a very good day tomorrow :)I'm kinda excited for the school holidays.. 2 weeks of hardcore studying D= NOOOOooooo haha JOKING! nah seriously.. Easter show, finally gonna go out and enjoy my life without having to stick with the same group of people, catch up with old mates, earn money, check out the guy who works at Santos [Annie ;);)], oh and of coarse.. study.. BUT it goes towards something soooo important [sarcasm]. May be it's more funner when i work with other people? lol

School - ok I think as SRC ppl... we are heading towards an attempt to create a mufti day.. not 100% on it but it's an idea. Founders day - grade themes... needing of options! [crazier the better?!] and obviously attempting to think about events to earn money [it goes to good things!]
I dno who ever reads this chuck in a couple of ideas to me :)

BEAR xx

Overwhelmed.

I'm not feeling like I have the zest of life when I walk into school. I don't feel satisified with wat I do. I work so hard and at the end of it, I don't even feel 100% me. It has been bothering my mind all day. When I think of my life, it's boring, I can't seem to manage why I live for, what goals do I want to achieve for the day/week/month/year/future? It's just too much. I feel like crying sometimes.. I'm an emotional person.. I guess.
Maybe I'm just heart broken, I look at myself in the mirror and see this horror ugliness appearing before me. I use to be pretty, now I'm ugly. Maybe I just feel overwhelmed with everything I do. I miss my old friends, and it seems like everyone is moving on besides me, I'm feeling left behind, out of the picture, not happy.
Yes, it's probably that.. I don't know where I stand today with friends, family, work, sport. I have no social life, and never will probably. I'm heart broken, and always will be. Over someone who is too good for me. I'm weak and hopeless.. feeling emotionally run down but oh well, life goes on and people rely on me. I'm overwhlemed with everything.
BEARx

muddled on love.

I never really pick up on the concept of 'love'. It's such a widely used word, and i never seem to get the true meaning on love.
In the old days, i guess love was only mentioned wen two people became one. nowadays we say love is for everythin like 'i love your sofa' nd 'i love the way you dance in the corridor' or... 'common love, got sumfin spesh for ya..' i dno. Maybe its my recent crush which has given me these thoughts.. i know he doesnt like me in tht way, but i just cant help it when he's so aesthetically attractive.. u kno what i mean.. ;)
he does my head in, i dno wat to do, he's just everythin tht i want but he's so stubborn.. i wish i culd speak his language to communicate better, but nothin is perfect. Nothing. nothin ever goes my way, im so determined to change stuff around, maybe i set my goals way to high.. maybe i shuld start bein practical, fantasy land is over... common think straight.. oh well, i'll like.. never get over him, i check his fb everyday, talk to him [sumtimes] and try n help him out.. i feel likes its all been a waste of time. nevermind i'll move on one day

Bear

My first

My first blog, first post, first words on my website. Ok tht sounds a bit cliche buti think i'm gonna enjoy posting stuff up :)
I don't actually understand what blogs are here for when we're all just randoms leaking the internet with personal thoughts and questions. I wonder if people become famous locally, if they write really good blogs. Being young means I ask questions too much, young people talk too much, try and grow up too quickly. That might be my fault in life, growing up to quickly. I've always wanted to be mature so I can get advantages and opportunities that other people can't.
hmm.. blogs r a good way of expressing my thoughts, haha :) the wonders of the internet huh?

Bear